a touching n sad video.... abt a relationship btw a daughter n dad..... listen to the lyrics carefully.. can imagine wad the children are feeling??
although the dad is a bastard... but the main focus is the pain the child is suffering all coz of her "dad".. making trouble... esp for the mum... no peace man...
click here

Do to watch tis video click here.. =D





Some songs just make me torn into pieces.. I cant pretend anymore.

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

today woke up... reached lecture room at 9.29... almost marked absent.. phew!
only saw the 4 guys n pearl man.. so little ppl.. but tat's y its GOOD.. coz YW won some $$ aft some bettings on soccer *hee... he's lucky la... feeling generous.. n he decided to treat all of us at pizza hut.. heeheheehh... christine joined us some time later... we were chatting all the way.... den yw come bastard me abt my TT competition.. aiya wadeva la...
sian ahh.. i lazy to continue to blog... brain saving for macro 1st.. aft test den blog again.. muahahhaha

http://media.euniverse.com/funpages/cms_content/1986/youarewhatyoueat.swf

This is wad the webbie described me as:

You sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life. ( is it?? dun seem like lei.. i dun set high goals....)

You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover. ( i work becoz i need $$$.. like duh...errm.. i dun think im honest sia... )

You are vigorous yet gentle. You appear to be mysterious to those who don't know you very well because you don't often reveal your feelings. You like to socialize and are popular among your peers. ( true tat i dun always reveal my feelings )

You are logical, smart and inventive. Sometimes you are too cold and selfish. ( maybe )

hmmm...
ok today as I was walking home from MRT... saw tis bimbotic chao ah lian.. with her busted ( use diff spelling) guyfrenz... shaking her butt while wearing short tight demin shorts n spaghetti strap with tatoos on her back....on the esclator with her techno music turning out loud.....she's bimbo-ing ard... omg.. i was super grossed out tat i wana puke out wad i ate for lunch today...

okie.. let me recount abt my day today...
got a wake up call frm aunty jacc... went back to slp again.. till my sis's alarm woke up me!!!
ok.. brushed my teeth got prepared den headed to church.. was late for 5-10 mins.. ended up sitting with ben..cos there wasnt any space.... aft church... tis is the boring part.... cant decide where to eat ( as usual ) some of the guys followed shawn po to eat at meritdian... den left with me addis felicia n silvia.. while sharon fiona jacc all went to sit in bible study... haha went to CP ate Mac... den waited for the rest to come... den headed to PS.... errm wad can i say?? it seems tat we're all splitting up.. kinda boring sia...

Sat 21-01-06
erm... also another kns day .... actually wanted to support addis for his skating competition.. ya supposed to meet them at somerset MRT at 10 am..... haha all thanks to MR IVAN- Zatt Zatt the potential late comer...
hhur hur.. make girl wait for 45 mins.. idiot lei... still gave me wake up call.. den late in the end... sian ah.. ooh so all coz of his lateness.. we missed the event... haha... tupid
den to bugis for bible talk.. err.. how to say?? it ended up out of a sudden coz of the rain la.. wadeva it is.. den we went bugis.. cant decide wad to eat... me felicia sonnia sera ej ivan lincoln ended up in PS bk.. omg.. kinda stupid too... went to ps just to eat bk... okok nth to say sia.. aft tat went with ivan to his work place to see if he got the job.. su bian see if got vancancy coz im currently broken.... den went home....

Fri 20-01-06
errm.. supposed to go for lecture de... den woke up at 11 when it starts at 11.. hoho.. received 2 msg.. from frenz both said also overslpt.. lol.. so nv go...den met up for MYOB.. tis totally SUX.... i did too many mistakes.. rush n rush.. totally need pearl's help or else i die like shit... kk went to print my work.. n done.. went town with debbie.. den dickson called to tag along... did some shopping n bought my shoes for CNY....

Thurs 19-01-06
met stef n pearl at KAP for lunch den headed for WCOM test....

Wed 18-01-06
met my group early for proj... baoyi dickson li kian debbie... den headed for lms... me n deb stayed back to do MYOB.. woah realised i haven do alot... was totally stressed man....


now: feeling down man... i feel corrupted.. thinking back.. i feel tat im a totally corrupted person -> slack, unorangised, not systematic, unplanned... blurr slow... wadeva... ignorant.. alot lei.. so shit lei.... everything ... abt me is tis.. sad.. i think i gonna changed myself for tis yr... im also easily distracted... i dunno wad's motivating me to move on.. i dunno man..

im super stressed.....
can i kill myself???
damn it la...
no time to study for my test..
freaking tired..
no brain cells alrrrrr
ROARRRRRRRR

seems like life in singapore is all about $$$$
no $$ no talk
look at me.. the poor jasmine...
freaky poor...
no $$$
saving hard
but couldnt make it
how can u survive without $$$??
GOD... help me man.....
I need $$
CNY hope can save me from poverty!!!

Life's getting stress...
test coming up tis week
staying up late to do hw..
meeting up for projs... but look wad we're doing...
slacking away......
feeling ignorance abt lotsa things...
shag...
no mood to study...
skipping lectures [ too boring ]
late for lectures
day dream during lectures
argh!!! all these are poor jasmine's struggles!!!
how?!?!?!
*die*
broke....
broke...
broke..
broke.

and my convictions la...
basically I'm super pig...
even though I tot of my bible...
I tend to forget and go to bed.... how??!?!?!
super tired.. not enough rest nowadays.... slept for only 3-4 hrs.. yest.. *sob...
Jasmine's having dark circles under her eyes!!!


BUT!!! think again......$$ can be earned...
Laziness can be changed....
I MUST BE MOTIVATED TO STUDY!!! muahahahaha
for God... u have to plant ur little faith den let it grow...
n as it grows... ur heart will turn golden................. n as pure as white... heez

[god]
Loving you always ....

ooh man.. today was my table tennis competition... but let me recap about tis morning when i 1st woke up... got ready.. den headed for sch... saw bus 74!!! wanted to run after it!!! BUT.. as i searched deep inside my bag!!! i couldnt find!!!! WHERE'S MY WALLETT??* roar* went back home n grabbed my wallet... got on the bus.. but had this weird weird feeling tat i forgot something else... TAT IS MY TABLE TENNIS BAT!!! wahlau... tat's the worse thing sia!! OF ALL things lei.. lol...was already on the bus!! den i sms my table tennis peeps.. they told me to borrow lo.. no choice.. ok.. den i realised something.. we needa bring laptop for BCA.. it was BCA tutorial.. shit la.... forgotten so many things already lo... yep...
reached sch got back my BCA test results..... 68.5/100 pass lo ... ooh den guess wad?

teacher: ok tat's all for today.... errmm go back n finish ur unit J n K....
:HAAHHAHAHA.. heng nv bring.... :P i not so tupid la!!!!


me lulu pearl mel headed to cafe to eat la... den town... den me back to sch for competition.. hohoxx.... GOOD NEWS: be reserve for today.. no need play.. waahaha.. COOL...
watched them played... errm... we lost 2:3 to NYP... sad la.. always lose by abit lei... oh ya... the otherside was RP vs SMU... hohoo... the captain described him as shaolin.. wear tight fitting clothes la.. den another one he said look like porn star!! ahha... really looks like la....
well... went dinner with hui xian n weena... den HOME SWEET HOME~~

hehee ... look at tis link.. super yan dao man.. lol... http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=5008348
haha was talking mixue.. den she send me so many links of yan dao n chio bu... but tis is the MOST... handsome.. omg....MUST SEE!!

hi ya... ooh well went sch as usual today... was LATE .. dead.. tis is my very horrible habit!!!!! ok.... den had FFA lecture.... well i think i was half dead la... den went C 3 makan.. while the guys went C4 eat... aft tat took our very super own sweet time to the tutorial.... den had MACRO... yahh.. den i was called up to do a qns.. which I DUNNO!!! so i crapped.. n den she asked me to go back :(
hee.. kkz aft tat QP wenta take cake for christina lian.. oh well.. HAPPY 18th bdae.. kkk... ermm supposed to give her a mini surprise.. had the teacher's help to actually make her stay in the room while we'll come in with the cake.. however, there's tis another tutor who's coming in to use the room.. jade explained to her... den tat big mouth tutor... said" ooo... so u all giving surprise ah.. come in la.. nvm one" errm.. well she said tat when she was opening the door.. i think so... kinda ruined the plan la.... oh well... but overall was okay.. had the cake... n now .. all pon make up lesson... i no choice must stay for Table tennis.. IVP training... yw kept saying must go... no choice.. sad la... so me pearl went library slack... saw mel n fx... den watch MTV.... ahhaa....den later zhao to make up lessons.. i was listening to pearl's mp3 the whole time sia...
met weena.. wenta changed lol!! both of us hesitating to go for training.. cos we both kena force to join the IVP which the competition is TIS thurs!! omg... i dun think i can make it lo!!!!!!! no confidence... got our table tennis jacket n jersey.. yup both are cool n nice... me n weena totally sianzzz.. i mean... with ONLY today for training... n thurs is the competition... so dui lian la.. wad if i didnt win?? think i'll lose... i mean CONFirm de.. but scared lose till damn bad.. haiz.... i mean my skills arent good enough to enter a compeition!! omg... tat bad la... sure throw NP's face de... jia lat!! how how how.... goshh... i mean like im not even prepared..... it really makes me wana quit table tennis.. but no choice.. alr paid $$ n stuff for the ivp stuff.... ahhhhh.. wish me luck la....
okok... i came up with my resolutions liao... yup yup
1. do QT n study bible.. well try to make it everyday.. but i think everytime is pretty hard for me :(
2. ST with the christains
3. Get baptised
4. obey my parents
5. build more n further friendships
6. kick off my laziness
7. be punctual and on time for any meetings/lectures/tutorials
8. do my hw n pay attention...
9. oowelll.... errmzzz... cant think sia... oo000oo0o... love god more... heheheeheheheheheheheh
10. wad else huh??? care for ppl!!! hahaha...
11. STOP SHOPPING... for goodness sake i'm DAMN BROKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sob***
12. kkz.. ooh ya.. tidy the house... yep yep...
13. not to be arrogant/BA any1....
14. most importantly... not to be hooked to my laptop/com..... esp games/msn or wadeva
15. slp early
16. not always go out
17. show care n love for my family
18. wad else?? excerise!! hee.. rite.... tat's all ....
welll tmr's public holi.. NO SCH... hehehe.. gonna go back to work.. double pay sia!! yay.................................

cant rem wad i did the last week.. ooh ... wed n thurs was at lulu's house... stayed overnight.. but ended up doing other stuff.. supposed to study n do hw....kk......
just knew tat on fri was my test MACE.... met pearl for lunch den headed to the hall... i anyhow do the T/F .. aft tat went town... wana dragged lu lu along.. but she super tired.... headed to town with mel mel n pearl.. hahah... ehh went shopping.... watched family stone.... kinda funny la... den went blossom.. bought a top.. hheeexxx....die la spend too much $$ le... den headed to church.... lol...by the time reached church super late... coz service was ending..... den prayed with aunty sharon n jess.. aahaha... den me aunty jacc aunty sharon stayed over at fiona's house... watched the pre teen retreat!! omg.. super FUNNY.. everyone was TOTALLY diff.... haha.... all look very innocent toot n cute la... laughed like shit.... den watched some korean show.. fell aslp... wah lau.. den i nv bring toothbrush.. feel so weird.. nx day.. woke up abt 10 + den went home while jac n fiona headed to CP mac... went home... did my IAC.... den gwen asked me out... called along ivan n xavier.. but den last min ivan cant make it.... den went shop but didnt buy anything....den xavier treated us ice cream at hagen daz... nice sia.. the steamboat ice cream.. duno wad is it called...... later went BK n talk.... talked abt rependence yr... den went city link m)phosis to find sharon.. coz gwen wana buy slippers... aft tat went home....
nx day sunday.... woke up at 10+ super nice to slp.. weather is GREAT for a nice n cosy slp... ahhhh.... den reached church at 12 just nice... haha... den went to eat pizza with jacc fiona brenda sara sonnia..... den meet the rest.. kynaston ben ivan lincoln shawn addis EJ....sera...but in the end.. separated.. coz some wana play dokta... so left me jacc fiona addis kynaston ivan... den go ivan house watch shows la.. fiona brought the pre teens retreat again.. HAHAHAHAH..... my 2nd time watching.. aft tat EYE2... ooh can say not scary .. aunty jacc kept screaming... actually not scary but her scream scared me more !! sai la... the ghost also dun look scary de.. but dunno y when i alone.. den i imagine things... stupid la.. ran up my stairs ok... i scared of lifts... oops....
wads tmr?? Sch time!!!! zZZZzZZzZZ
oh ya.. added some jay chou songs in my blog le...

ooh yo... haven updated since last thurs..
fri: went dinner with my aunt n her boyfriend from amsterdam....
sat.. oooh meet up with sharon jacinda n feli at yio chu kang swimming.... wana suntan n excerise... not bad la.. got suntan.. look quite red...actually sun burn la.... den played concentration game.. plus some holding ur breathe game.. n i lost all... :( .. yah forced to treat them food ....
den jacinda followed me home n she ended up slping.. pig eh.... later gwen came to my house at abt 4+... needa dress up for the church countdown party... hmmm... dress code is red indian cowboy or western.. duno wad to wear sia... lucky my sis got some red indian stuff... ahaha.. so i dressed like red indian la... cool... den jacinda cowboy.. gwen also red indian... me n jacinda set off 1st since we needa reach there earlier ... while gwen n my sis.. still dressing up.. hoho... saw fiona n peiling... den more n more ppl came... feli came n helped us plege hair... ahaha... den service started... aft service.. went down for food... den some games.... super noisy.. aft game.. dancing... errr... think most of us damn high... dance like siao.... dance till perspire sia.. den run abt.. totally nuts... aft tat... is countdown... den me sharon jacinda felicia jenifer brenda ivan lincoln addis xavier manfred kynaston ej... wenta ton at punggol.. we walked there... coz no bus... den hafta walked through super dark n ulu places... saw bats..den ivan come add in some stories tat punggol end used to have many ppl died during the war since it was the habour last time... ya.. hack la.. den finally reached.. play maffia n truth games... dunno y maffia i keep dying... stupid la... ya ... den zhong ji mi ma... kena must tell truth... FOS la.. haha.. played till 5+ den 1st bus came... took till hougang mall.. coz they wana eat breakfast... at mac.. but mac 7 den open... wah lau den i stay so near.. also dun feel like eating breakfast... also kinda shag.. den went home 1st n orh orh... song la.. but dunno y keep waking up at intervals... 10+ 1+ 3+...


































haha... den night time go eat dinner with my aunty n her bf again... with my cousin tis time.. at least can chat sia... hhaa...
hmmmm fri having test.. haven start revision... lol...mon starting sch.. SO FAST!!!! :X