SHE.HER.

Saturday, January 30, 2010

I realised that I'm someone who builds many friendships and then when I feel like friends are drifting away from me, I would run and escape and leave the friendships before they leave me...
Due to my abandonment schema, I abandon before they abandon me.
I'm afraid to be really closed to people. Because I think that friendships and relationships don't last. It creates a HUGE barrier for me and friends. I feel empty when friends meet up without me.
I can't help but do this over and over again..

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

wahaha.
i can't believe I'm becoming a cheena pop!!!
after my crazy ktv sessions at chinatown $10 club,I fell in love with 蕭敬騰 (in case you cant read, in english is Xiao Jing Teng) hehehe!! I think he's charming!!
oh noo~~~
looking at his mtv now!! HAHA!! his voice very poweR~ awesome to e max~

Saturday, January 23, 2010

I love this song man. so emo yet it pleases my heart!
Watching e mtv just makes me feel shiok.
It's just about this little girl who thought that the world is sweet, nice and harmless like an angel. But then as she explores, the world is not like what she think it is. It is horrible, nasty, evil. Now she couldn't face the truth, she ran away and died!!! love it!!! cause it's so true that this world is full of evilness. People who think that the world is sweet, please wake up!! It's not.

Friday, January 22, 2010

Goodbye my friends!
I think I no longer existed in your lives.
Goodbye!

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

Jasmine:
You need to be strong!
You need to persevere!
No matter what!
Even if you face situations or emotions that you don't like or don't wish to!
Look at reality !
Stop having flashbacks..
Let begones be begones..
Even if you're no longer a part of them, it's okay.
Even if you're alone, and you feel like nobody would understand, it's still okay.
This is life.
Life aint smoothing all the time.
The feeling will be temporary.
Everything will be history.
Yes, you may be feeling miserable & others seem happy.
But life is more than you can imagine.
Be positive girl.
You will see better things in life...

Saturday, January 16, 2010

This is my 2nd post of the year!!
Hmmm, I hope I can keep up with my resolutions.
Korea after exams.. Needa save up BIG TIME!!
hmmm, study hard for exams. Complete all the assignments that were neglected by me.
yesh!! lead a happy life.

uh huh..

Just a random though but i think that some guys are really girly in the inside. Sometimes you realised they're more emotional than girls in general. How scary........ They need love and attention more than you. EWWWWw

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Haven't been blogging for awhile, ever since I went through a major crisis in my life.

People do lie very well about their feelings. Even if they're being questioned many times. Cause the reason they lied was simply plain selfishness. They deny so that others wouldn't know and spoil their perfect plan they had in mind, even though it may hurt someone.

From a holiday to Rome, everything changed officially when I came back.
GREAT JOB!!!
WOW HOW HAPPY!
YOU GOT WHAT YOU WANT!!!!!
WOOHOO~

I gotta overcome this stupid awkwardness that I will face each time I see __.
How gullible was I to believe __. HOHOHO.. I wish I could turn back time and undo many things that I did. So that the damage wouldn't be big. Been like an idiot.

God put me through this test for a reason.. & I think I know why. He just wants me to know who really cares for me. I do now. Friends who consoled and talked to me, and tell me that there will be better people. True enough, I'm surrounded with people who care for me. (at least it seems like it)
And I found an angel in my life. she has always been there for me through my down times. Well, I was absolutely inspired by the experiences she faced through her down times too. I can never imagine or expect anybody to express such beautiful words for me. It was special. I can totally remember what she shared about her life. I was truly touched by her genuine spirit.

Great!! I've learned a big lesson!!! Now, I have to be careful about what people say. Especially for people when they say this, but do that. Actions speak louder than words. I know you're lying or hiding once your words don't tally with your actions! & I can read & observe people's behaviours and actions. So you cant fake it off in front of me!! heh heh heh!!!

Matthew 23:25
"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites! You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence.

HA HA HA HA HA!