MY HAMSTER IS MISSING!!!



My poor little sunshine has been missing for days. I had no idea where it went. Couldn't find her anywhere around dark places and underneath all my furniture!!!
Its been living without food and water. =(
I don't want to smell something bad and realised it dead somewhere in my house.
HAIZ.
HAMSTER PLS COME BACK!!! DON'T GO AROUND EXPLORE ALR...
I'll give u new sand, new food, new water & new sawdust. Don't run away ever.

Somehow I've been struggling to study my psychology so badly. I couldn't get on fast. I've been clinging on the same old page and chapter.
Don't you wish that God created some shortcuts in life, so you don't have to go through so much processes and things that could have been done easily.
Its like the movie "Click". You don't have to go through anything and all you have to do is to.... FAST FORWARD! TA DA!! No need to study and the next thing you knew, you're done with your exams. HEE HEE.
BUT NO? There isn't such thing on earth. SIGHHSSSS

schema therapy lifetraps

I so happened to find my schema therapy of life traps questionnaires among my tray of rough papers. This therapy was conducted by my church some time ago for us to find out what are our life traps. AND i decided to give it a try again. This time round, I realised I scored lower than my previous scores. I probably grew more confident of myself compared to 2 years ago back then. Amazingly, no matter how perfect a person is, there bond to be some life trap he/she has been facing. That explains why some people realised their partners are different after dating. It's because their partners have been suffering from this life traps deep inside them and it's only revealed to people who are very very closed to them. i.e their partners.
My highest was abandonment followed by approval seeking & insufficient self control
Basically there's 18 life traps.
1. emotional deprivation - when u feel like there's no one to take care of your emotional needs
2. abandonment - afraid of being left alone
3. social isolation - feel alienated with people, prefer to be alone
4. defectiveness - feel like there's something wrong about u. critical about things that are not right
5. failure - afraid of failing & see it as a bad thing for failing
6. dependence - relying on your family or partners much more than u rely on yourself or you don't rely on yourself at all
7. vulnerability - feel that you're weak & easily intimidated by others
8. enmeshment - the feeling of cant escape for something you done wrong i.e guiltness
9. subjugation - must take control of everything
10. emotional inhibition - afraid of showing your true feelings
11. unrelenting standards - high expectations of everything, perfectionist.
12. entitlement - people own you. they should do things to please u
13. insufficient self control - lack of discipline & management
14. approval seeking - needy of attention & approval from people
15. negativity/pessimism - always feel that things will go bad. critical
16. punitive - blaming yourself after things don't seem to go correctly or feeling that you deserved to be punished for making a mistake
17. self sacrifice - putting other needs before you, neglecting your own needs
18. Mistrust/abuse - afraid to trust people

what's yours?

what is life without both your arms & limbs?


After watching a video showed by my church during service I couldn't help but teared. It was SO SO SO SAD. How can a man born without any limbs and arms be able to live so happily? He's middle aged & yet he's able to play golf, swim, etc. Despite being so self pity and indulged in his own brokenness, he stayed strong throughout his life. He told himself that he is able to make it through.
At the age of 8, he wanted to commit suicide. I mean come on, anyone put in that situation would want to commit suicide. But THIS MAN stayed SO STRONG! He wanted to do so much for God and those people out there who felt like they were so unfortunate. But who is? compared to him? He wasn't even given a chance to walk on both legs nor a chance to use his own arms to actually take something. I really admire his strength and optimism.
True enough people with no limbs or arms are pitiful enough. Yet Nick without both is able to do so much.
How about people like us who are born normally? Shouldn't we treasure ourselves & our loved ones? Aren't we given a better opportunity to lead a better life? But why are there some people who hated themselves or their lives so much that they wanted to commit suicide? I feel sorry for them because they could not see their purpose in life.
It so happened that I came across a blog linked from my friend who blogged about this great man Nick Vujicic. Ain't he awesome to be able to spread his convictions and his life across the continents??

I can only imagine
i dropped some tears of mine when i see this video...


its just soo heart warming to feel how Jesus died for us.
=)
well i gotta stay really strong for Him..
He's the only reason why love exist...
my emptiness can be filled through Him...
i need to trust in Him..
I'm truly happy to have bros & sis in Christ in my life...
they taught me to lead the righteous life...
which isn't easy i must admit..
but praise God hallelujah...
I can lead on Him...

just like the lyrics.. i can only imagine.. because He gave us hope & faith in life..